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  • How My Mornings Usually Go

    Some mornings, it’s as simple as making chai and standing quietly in the kitchen while the water boils. No scrolling. No planning. Just waiting. Letting my mind arrive before the day does. Sometimes I’ll have the noticias playing softly in the background while I sip my chai, half listening, half still waking up. I try, as much as I can, not to reach for my phone first thing. Not to dive straight into the noise. Those mornings feel slower, more intentional, like I’m easing myself into the day rather than being pulled into it.

    Other mornings look completely different. I wake up and the first thing I do is put music on, loud. Spotify or YouTube blasting while I crank up my coffee machine and get everything ready to make the perfect drip coffee. The kitchen turns into a small concert. I sip my coffee, scroll through social media, catch up on the latest gossip, see what everyone else is doing. Those mornings are more chaotic, more indulgent, but just as real. I don’t always know which version of myself I’ll get when I wake up, and I’ve stopped trying to control that too much.

    Writing fits somewhere in between all of this. It’s become a place I return to when I need clarity, but not in a rigid or disciplined way. Some days it’s just a few lines. Other days it turns into a full page without me noticing the time pass. And sometimes it’s simply sitting with one sentence, adjusting it, rereading it, waiting until it feels honest enough to keep. I don’t force it. I let it meet me where I am. Lately, I’ve also been toying with the idea of writing about more and more different topics, because my interests are so varied. And then, just as quickly, the doubt creeps in. I wonder if anyone else out there would actually care about my thoughts or opinions. I don’t always have an answer to that, but I keep writing anyway.

    Food is another place where all of this shows up clearly. My mixed cultural background has shaped how I eat in ways I don’t even think about anymore. Some mornings I crave a pincho de tortilla, pan con tomate, or a tostada con aguacate. Other days I wake up wanting poha, upma, or a koki for breakfast. And then there are days when the lines blur completely. A butter chicken curry with a barra de pan feels like absolute perfection to me. It makes sense in my world, even if it might look strange to someone else. Food grounds me. It brings memory, comfort, and presence without asking me to explain myself.

    I think what I’m slowly learning is that these rhythms don’t need to be perfect or consistent to matter. Some days are quiet and intentional. Other days are noisy and indulgent. Both belong. What matters is noticing them. Coming back to myself through small choices, familiar tastes, words on a page, or a moment of stillness in the kitchen.

    I don’t need my days to look the same to feel anchored. I just need to keep paying attention.

    — Raulito

  • January Feels Like a Quiet Promise

    January has never felt loud to me. It arrives quietly, almost cautiously. While the world rushes to label it as a fresh start or a clean slate, I’ve always experienced it differently. January feels quieter. Softer. Almost like the year is stretching slowly after a long night’s sleep. Especially these early days, when the decorations are mostly gone, the messages slow down, and everyone seems to be finding their way back into themselves.

    Here in Madrid, and in Spain more generally, it also feels a little different because the celebrations are not quite over yet. We are still aware of the upcoming Reyes festivities, of what’s still to come. Many people are still off work, or taking things slowly until Reyes has passed. There is still a trace of holiday mood in the air. Not loud or chaotic, but present. A sense that we are easing into the year rather than jumping straight into it.

    There is something comforting about January 2. It carries none of the pressure of resolutions or grand declarations. It feels like borrowed time. A pause between what was and what will be. The year is technically new, but nothing has fully begun yet. I like that space. It gives me room to notice how I actually feel before deciding what I want to do with it.

    I’ve never been someone who thrives on sudden reinvention. I prefer gentle shifts. Subtle adjustments. Quiet promises made to myself rather than loud ones announced to the world. January supports that way of being. It invites reflection without demanding action. It allows curiosity without urgency. And right now, that feels exactly right.

    Writing fits into this month naturally. Not as a goal or a challenge, but as a rhythm. A way to check in. A way to stay present. Some days the words come easily. Other days they arrive slowly. Both feel valid here. January doesn’t rush me, and I don’t want to rush it either.

    As I sit with these early days of the year, I find myself less interested in where I’m going and more curious about how I want to move. What pace feels sustainable. What thoughts keep returning. What stories ask to be written. There’s a quiet confidence in allowing things to unfold without forcing them into shape too quickly.

    Maybe that’s the promise January holds for me. Not transformation, but permission. Permission to start slowly. Permission to listen. Permission to build something meaningful one quiet day at a time.

    For now, that’s enough.

    — Raulito